Sunday, 2rd June 2002
I feel tired, frustrated and depressed, I can’t survive any more, there isno moral values and ethics under the occupation, and there is no justice inthe world, the ” IDF ” soldiers killed my hopes, dream and future.I can’t survive, It’s difficult for me even to write my diary and expressmy self in such words.To live with the face of the evil is something, and to write about it issome thing else.The soldiers caused ” Trauma ” for me, the Trauma of injustice.Since couple days I stay home, crying in my bed, I don’t want to work or towrite. Crying is the only way to clean my feeling.
Monday, 3rd June 2002
When there is no ” Law ” , there is no justice, and when there is no Justice,no peace.Today I’m going to talk about the injustice in my homeland, the injusticeunder the ” Liberation War ” .I don’t think we can build our Palestinian State under this terribleculture, and crazy men society. And while we must have our PalestinianState, we must think how to build the State of the Law and the Civil Law.During the Intifadah, my people made reverse 50 years against women, whobelieve that a doctor married a 14 years old girl last week? Who believesthat the marriage age in Hebron between 14-18 years old while thepercentage of young divorced marriages are increased.Violence increased against women inside the family, and in the streets,women are not allowed to file complaint against the violence in the policebecause there is no civil law against the violence. Any one can curse thewomen in the street if he don’t like her dress or if she is not coveringher hair!!
Traditional believes growing up, and young girls in the age of 5 or 6years used to cover hair with scarves in childhood.
The religious people are growing and the violence against women growingwith them. They teach the new generation that the women should be coveredand controlled by men since childhood. the young boys learned to be violentmen!! small kids asked me in the street why I don’t cover my self, thesaid, ” it’s haram ” to work like this.
The youth are shouting at me in the street to cover my self, they claimedthat the occupation came as a result of disobeying the God word of coveringwomen?? This is all what the religious people teach the new younggeneration in the mosques! women always the close line to hang the problemson!!
Wednesday, 5th June 2002
It was very quiet when the ” IDF ” soldiers driving war tanks break intoHebron at 11am, the Palestinians were shopping normally in the center ofthe city.The soldiers ordered every body to go back home, they were shooting everywhere without limited target.
The IDF soldiers break into the villages surrounding Hebron at the sametime, they killed young boy 15 years old at the entrance of Beit Ommarvillage when they shot at crowded youth playing in the streets!!Morad Alqam was Killed in the middle of his friends in Beit Ommar, hisfriends told me that the ambulance arrived after 45 minutes. The IDFsoldiers stopped the ambulance for searching until Morad died in the sameplace of his injury.
Thursday, 6th June 2002
Israel the State of the Injustice??Dose Israel the State of the Law?? This is the Israeli Law…Today I received a letter from the Ministry of justice. They informed me ofclosing my complaint against the ” IDF ” soldiers because I don’t help themthrough the investigation.I’m deeply concerned the military police investigator lies.
On 30 May 2002. The military police send me a soldier to investigate mylawyer complaint against the IDF practices towered me in my house.The investigator arrived the ” DCO ” office at 12 o’clock to listen to mytestimony, but the ” DCO ” officer protest and he didn’t allowed theinvestigator to start his work, he claimed that he didn’t receive anyinformation about the investigation before.The ” DCO ” officer ordered me to get out of his office and wait until he askthe military commander Colonel Dror Wienberg.
The military investigator went with the ” DCO ” officer, they spend one hourtogether before the investigation.At one o’clock, they called me, I went with Rick Polhamus , an Americanobserver.The investigator told me that he don’t understand Arabic or English, andthe ” DCO ” officer should be my translator, It was seems to me that theinvestigator came to close the file of my complaint against the ” IDF ” soldiers.He was looking in his watch all the time and talking on his cell phone.When I start talking with him, He said, No I don’t want to hear this, Iwant to hear about that!! and when I talked about that, he said, no I wantto tell me about this!!
I told him, look, If you don’t want to investigate me well, be sure evenafter 10 or 20 years later, I will file a complain against the ” IDF “soldiers in the International court in Belgiom! I will file a complainagainst the military commander him self Dror wienberg.
After half an hour, The ” DCO ” office decided to leave us, the investigatortold me that he couldn’t continue investigating me because time is over andhe should return, he asked me to give him a copy of all what I send to mylawyer in order to help him through the investigation. He said, that hegoing to translate all what I will give him and then he will call me tocontinue the investigation!!
The military investigator took all the letters, and a video cassette of allthe ” IDF ” made damages in my house.On 6th, June 2002, his officer send me a letter informing me that theyclosed my complaint file because I didn’t help them through the investigation.
I posted the military police letter to my lawyer to take her legal stepsconcerning the matter.
This is the statement of Rick Polhamus: ” I went to the DCO to be anobserver of the process of the investigation of Kawther’s complaint. We hadto wait while the inspector talked to the military commander for about onehour. When we were finally were admitted they told Kawther they wouldtranslate her statement because the investigator didn’t understand Arabicor English. However he asked questions and spoke most of the time inEnglish. The investigation was interrupted many time by the inspectorleaving the room to take calls on his cell phone. In the hour we were therehe was only talking with us for about 20-30 minutes. He would ask Kawtherquestions and then when she would start to answer he would interrupt sayingthings like, ‘I already know about you. I don’t want to hear all aboutthis.’ When he asked about what evidence Kawther had, she started to playhim tapes of the soldiers harassing her but the inspector would stopKawther from playing them. Finally he received a call and said that hewould have to stop the investigation for that day. He said he woulddownload her diary from www.gush-shalom.org. He took a copy of Kawther’scomplaint from her lawyer and a video tape. He said that he would have themtranslated so he could study them and then he would contact Kawther inabout one week to continue the investigation. This a summary of what Iobserved. I can be contacted about this while I am in the area at02-222-8485 or in the US at 973-368-2221. “
Friday, 7th June 2002
Today I posted my diary dated 6th, June 2002 to Mr. Iran Shindar, theOfficer of the Military Police Investigation Unit.I wrote for him, hope you will be able to read the investigation play madeby your military police investigators in order to close my file complaintagainst the ” IDF ” sick practices towered me in Hebron.
I think if all the investigations made by your police staff in such ofdifferent cases is going like this, in the same way I was investigated,that’s means you are not objective police, or even you are not apolice and it’s better if you sell ” tomato ” in ” Mahni Yoda ” vegetable market.
The testimony below in my diary dated 6th, June 2002 is the way I wasinvestigated by your police.
Daily, I’m receiving a lot of different international support by the peoplein the world, Ramin was the one who support me in such of different waythat I couldn’t write about it now, and I can just talk about it in thenext closed future, July 2002.
This is what I was received by Mrs. Marisa, a citizen of Spain, but residein the US of America due to marriage, and what I shoose to part of my diary.Mrs. said that she is reading my diary since it was first posted in GushShalom, it managed to touch her heart many times over.Mrs. posted me long letter and I’m rewriting part of what she wrote.
The glorious sound of silence. (Thinking of Kawther Salam of her woes)No, I don’t hear the scary soundsOf bullets swishing by my earOr bombs falling from the skiesAnd the starting voices of soldiers…
…Nor do I have to stoic endure
Lewd comments from anyone
Or the cutting off, of anything
Or the stomping on my rights…
…Life ’tis, merely, as should be
With mornings filled with dew
And nothing, out of the ordinary
Such as the hazard of falling houses
Or the rumpling of evil bulldozersAlters, what every soul yearns…
…For the bulldozers are, solely
For building houses and roads
And the plows prepare the fields
For tomorrow’s, welcome bread…
…And the flowers can rise up lazily
Aware that little shall ravage themNoises don’t obliterate their chants…
…Palestine, teeming with evil noises
My wish may be simple yet, grandiose
And the shrill sound, of peaceful doves…
2-190 ” ecos… ” (31) Por, Quidam – April 2002)
To Kawther from A Friend, 7th, June 2002
Maybe it’s the color of the sun cut flatAnd covering these crossroads I’m standing at.Maybe it’s the weather or something like thatBut Kawther, you’ve been on my mind.
Though you think my mind is hazy and thoughts might be narrow,The things that happen to you bring me down in sorrow.I pray that things will be much better for you tomorrowBecause Kawther, you’ve been on my mind.
When you wake up in the morning Kawther, look into your mirror.you know I won’t be next to you. you know I won’t be near.I’d just be curious to know if you can see yourself as clearAs someone has had you on his mind.
Rick
8th, June 2002
It was very hot today, thetemperature reach 37 degree,when the Jewish settlers and the soldiers broke into theold market of the city of Hebron and they start damaging the Palestinians shops and shootingevery where,The Palestinians screaming shacked the old buildings in the city,The soldiers were protecting the settlers damages,they helped them and they threw sound bombs.They shoot also, a Palestinian was injured seriously and others were injured lightly.the settlers were screaming (death to Arabs),(we don’t want to see dogs in Hebron) that means, Arabs dogs!!
The settlers closed the old market which was underthe military curfew since over 523 days!!
The old market is the only part of the city Hebron that Palestiniansallowed to live after the military closed Al-Shuhade and Al-ShallalehStreets because of the Jewish settlers presence in the city.The Palestinians are not allowed to marry, celebrate,using the cars the transportation or even to have a donkeysto help them to carry things in there daily life,the Palestinians carried the Gaz pipes on their shoulders,and they walked many kilometers around the cityin the mountains in order to reach the center of city of Hebronwhich is not far away of their homes and they can reach it inthree minutes if the military open the Shalaleh and theShuhada streets like it was before.
Sunday, 9th June 2002
The children testimonies made me cry, it was very difficult to control mytears in front of them, it’s very difficult for any one to hear the kidsexpressing their fears.I love to talk to children, and I love to make them happy, I don’t have achild, but many times I cut my tour to give them some sweets and to talk tothem.
Daily, Rawan, Najwan and Suzan the three sisters inviting me to visit them,I always give them a promise if they receive high marks in the school.The kids identified me easily, they called me by name, they act the way Iwork, dress and talk in the T.V, some of them have a dream to be ajournalist like me!!
Since three days, I didn’t recognize the three sisters sitting on thewindow behind the light curtain.O’ God, what’s happen? I nocked the door of three kids’s house, the motheropened, she is very weak with yellow face and tearful eyes!!Rawan cut our silence and said, ” the Yahood, that’s means the Jewish shotmy sister Najwan, she is in the hospital ” !!
Najwan, five years old, was slept in her bed with her two sisters on whenthe ” IDF ” soldiers and settlers broke into the old market on Saturday night.The mother heard the noise of the ” IDF ” and the settlers shooting andscreaming, she said, ” I continued working in the kitchen, I know my threekids were slept ” !!
When Rawan walk up to have a glass of water, she asked me for a help, her’bijama’ was covered of blood, the mother said and she cried.
Najwan was shoot in her eye in the middle of her two sisters, she wasbleeding and unconscious, her tow sisters were sleeping and covered of blood!!The small kid get the bullet from the open window, the mother told me howshe went to the hospital with her husband, they were carried Najwanunconscious, the ‘IDF’ soldiers stopped them, they didn’t allowed theambulance to come and carry the small child!!
The mother was telling me the story, when Rawan asked me to follow her, shetook me to her bed were her sister Najwan get injured, the points of bloodstill covering the wall!!Rawan wrote under the blood, ” this is Najwan’s blood, 7th, June 2002 ” !! Shedrew a picture of black man holding big gun and shooting toward a smallflower??!! The picture made me cry in front of the mother and her kids!!
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Monday, 10th June 2002
When I stopped to give the kids in the old market some sweets, I asked themwhat they are going to do during the summer holiday?Spontaneously, the kids, ” we have already start our course in the mosque,we receive money, food and study in the mosque ” ??!!The kids told me something about the Grave Torture after death!!How the angels ‘Naker and Niker’ investigating the people in the graveabout what they did in their life and how they tortured their bodies!!How the angels took the bodies five times daily and forced the peoplethey weren’t pray during their life to pray in the middle of the fire inthe hell!!
How the women hanged from the hair because they weren’t covered!!How ” Al-Shaheed ” that’s means the martyrs and the suicide bombers replacinga good place in the ‘Paradise’ married of 70 charming women, the nail ofeach one is better more than the hole world!! And how Al-Shaheed is givingforgiveness for 70 person of his family to enter the Paradise and live withhim!!
How Al-Shaheed blood spread nice smell and perfume, and his body survive tobe a live in the garden of the Paradise with God since the moment he died!!How the women nails covered with polish will be flamed, and the musicianears will be closed with lightening flame stick??!!Such of deplorable stories the kids in the age of the flowers studied inthe mosque!!
No body teach these children that God is peace, love forgiveness and mercy,no body told them that life is very short and they should enjoy it, no onetold them that God is not a list of threat and warning orders and massages.These children shouldn’t go to the mosque to hear just false roamers and lies.I’m crying the future of this new generation, I’m crying the terriblesituation that made the extreme people growing and using the others needsunder the name of God and help.
11th, June 2002
Who is this Israeli soldier? Is he looking for his picture??Why the Israeli commander arrested his soldier for 21 daysafter the Palestinian Newspaper ‘AL-Hayat’ showed his coloured pictureplaying with a Palestinian child??I was astonished when the PA employee from Bethlehemasked me about the IDF soldier I was filmed in Hebron playing with thePalestinian child taking off his gun and hold it on his sholder!!The PA employee said, “the israeli soldier is looking for his pictureafter he was arrested 21 days as a resultof publishing it in my Newspaper”!!The IDF soldier lifted his work,he is working nowadays as a metal constructor.
A couple of days before the ‘Intifada’, the israeli constructor went to ‘Hosan’ village andasked thePA employee to help him to reach or talk with me, he told him about how I was walkingin Hebron with a small child carying IM16 plastic gun, and how he loved thechild and he played with him honestly while I filmed them.He asked about a copy of his pictureif it possible because he didn’t see it yet.The soldier said, “it was a surprise when his officertold him that the commander asked to punish him 21 days in prison becauseof what he played with the Palestinian kid”!!When I heard the story I decided to write the story inmy newspaper, and to send the soldier a copy of his picture,I was prepared the story and the picture while the ‘Intifada’began at that moment.
Hope any one identified the soldier will send hispicture through Gush-Shalom web site, an my apologize too.