Through the gunfire
For those that didn't read Carla's earlier message, please see: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/palsolidarity/message/420

The next day we did accompany Palestinians down the
road that used to lead into Mawasi (that now stops at
a checkpoint guarding the new settlements) carrying
medical supplies. At least one hundred rounds of
warning shots hit the ground around us as we slowly
made our way forward. A very long walk of only a
quarter mile. One reporter, a Palestinian, was shot
in the head (he was taken to the hospital and survived
as the wound was superficial), but the group decided
to continue forward. The task of those of us who were
internationals was to protect the Palestinians (the
reporter had been taking pictures to the side--very
exposed). We walked in front and on the outer edge of
their group, with them in the center, using the
privilege of our international status (we hoped) to
shield them. I had moved to the back of the group on
the same side as the guntower in order to shield the
women and I have not ever paid so much attention to
absolutely every step I took. I was hearing sharp
cracks of bullets on the ground next to me. A lot of
them. Sprays of dirt kicked up by the bullets hit my
cheeks. Each step became a shear act of will. The
Palestinian women next to me must have been living the
same struggle, but they were here to try to go home
after two years, and I was here to accompany them as
far as they were willing to go. Carrying a cardboard
box of medical supplies (everyone else had see-through
plastic bags) I was acutely aware of how they would
have the excuse of saying they couldn't see what was
in the box--there could have been a bomb--if I were to
be hit. I opened the top, carrying it at an angle
to demonstrate there was nothing to hide.

Palestinians from Mawasi had not walked this road in
two years without being shot at. This obviously was
no different, however, we made it close enough to the
guntower to be able to negotiate with the soldiers,
closer than anyone had done previously. Encouraged by
the negotiations, we took a few more steps forward,
eliciting more bullets, this time silent bullets.
That was truly eerie--the only sign we had that we
were still being fired on was seeing (and feeling)
dirt kicked up by the impact of the bullets. Unheard
bullets were more terrifying--and luckily only a few
were fired--those who had more experience with
soldiers in Gaza announced that it was time
to retreat, as the use of silent bullets meant serious
business. We did not make it past the checkpoint that
day, but two days later a group of Palestinians and
internationals did go those last few feet to the
checkpoint and negotiated getting the medical supplies
into Mawasi. A small victory.

Amazing to me was how quickly I got used to gunfire.
The first day I was in Rafah I went with Molly to see
the family she had been staying with. Their home had
been demolished that morning and the family was
gathering what it could salvage. We had to run for
cover as a tank fired on what was left of the house.
By the time I went to the Mawasi checkpoint I had been
staying in Gaza in Palestinian homes for a
week. Every day and almost every night I experienced
shooting from the tanks that rolled by the edge of
town, into the neighborhoods where the houses were
located. Gunfire was (is) a daily reality on the
southern perimeter of town bordering Egypt. Here
Israel has plans for a "security" wall designed to
keep Palestinians from leaving Gaza. The goal was
(is) to wear down the resolve of families to stay
in their homes that are on the periphery of town
near the future wall. Neighborhoods are repeatedly
assaulted by gunfire from tanks until families leave.
Sometimes a tank will target a house with mortar fire,
as was the inhabited house next to where my friend
Molly was staying. (Let me make it clear these are
unarmed civilians, families, non-combatants). Once
homes are abandoned, Israeli soldiers will first
dynamite, then bulldoze the houses, and begin to
assault the homes of families that are newly exposed,
homes that had laid behind the now demolished
ones. Slowly they are eating away at the edges of
Rafah.

That is all I have to share for now, except to add
that my experience of Palestinians is of a people to
whom family and land mean everything. I will hold in
my heart forever the smiles, the eyes full of
kindness, the humor, and the generosity of each person
who has contributed to my first memories of Palestine.

In Solidarity, with Love~
Carla